yupp, coming back from new zealand has made me think about life and the choices i have. meeting up with km, jing and si has also made me realised some stuff too. some things i can say for sure are:
1. i would love to travel to see the mountains, the sea, the lakes, the vast lands, clear skies and beautiful scenery of other countries that is so much lacking in singapore. each time i travel out of singapore, it just makes me wanna get out of singapore more, to see the world, to enjoy the slower pace of life and indulge in this luxury that singapore can't offer.
2. contrary to most people, i think i like working life than studying life. yes, while i agree that life as a student is very much carefree, i treasure my weekday nights and weekends off from the tedious routine of studying 24/7. putting work aside and being able to indulge myself in surfing the internet, watching drama series or reading my novels leisurely is definitely the way to go to spend my weekends:) and working has been fun for me, for the past 5 months (almost), since i get to see the adorable kids and great colleagues everyday. though i will be very much more satisfied if my pay is higher than the current one since i'm doing more than what i'm expected of. (then again, si is right at how we always feel that we are underpaid regardless of what we do, haha.)
3. i'm enjoying my current lifestyle, with not too much responsibilities but still earning some to keep up with spendings and savings. the thing is, i shouldn't be content with it. and i should be job hunting more actively. but, it is very disheartening when i dun even get calls for interviews. aiya, the problem with applying for government jobs:(
4. and i'm pinning a lot of hope on this job i applied for, which i managed to get through to the 3rd round of application. interview is gonna be in mid-may, so i still gotta wait, and there is also the possibility that i won't pass the interview. but i would love to get the job, so that, for one, i will be officially employed on my first job and two, i can get out of singapore. too high the hopes, higher the disappointment, no? i guess, i just have to wait and see how it goes.
and the things i am unsure of....
1. if i failed in my application for the above job, what should i do next??? i know i should most probably stop working at the childcare centre and properly job hunt or at least get another job which actually accumulate work experience that is more useful to the actual jobs that i forsee myself working in!
2. BUT. sometimes, i just lose sight of what those jobs i forsee myself in. and i will start thinking, why not just stay on in this childcare centre and venture into this field since i enjoy working with kids so much? then the salary issue will strike me once again, will it sustain my spendings and savings?? and will the career prospects in this field satisfy me in the future? decisions decisions. my passion for kids is great, but my pragmatic side is winning in this fight currently.
well, at least, at the very least, i have yet another month to decide and sit on the fence since i am still waiting for the interview that is going to happen in mid-may. if the interview fails, the tough decision making between staying on or moving on to somewhere else will be a sucky process.
because there is no way of telling where these roads will lead you to, making a choice is difficult.
